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May. 13th, 2006 @ 11:46 pm (no subject)
I lost my entire case file and I can't seem to get a hold of the recovery disk needed to retrive the information from Jamies computer.

yeah I am fucked.
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May. 1st, 2006 @ 10:10 pm (no subject)
"I really feel as if I had lain asleep or half asleep for a long time, but am now awake and clear headed and receptive in a way I never am ordinarily." (hesse)

that quotation doesn't really fit my mood right now because I feel tired, like i'm still half asleep. I do not feel clear headed or receptive. instead, I feel tired and apathetic.
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Apr. 7th, 2006 @ 10:15 pm (no subject)
This world is so complicated, so frusterating. Then, close your eyes. For a moment you seem to stop thinking about everything around you, and think of what makes you happy. What will be there for sure when you decide to open your eyes and face the world. At first it just feels so nice to close your eyes, feels so safe. So peaceful. Then, you realize the world is still moving, nobody else has stopped for that minute your eyes were closed. You may have missed something terribly amazing.
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Sep. 19th, 2005 @ 12:47 am (no subject)
There are so many things going on around me and I feel like its all happening in slow motion. I just can't seem to grasp what it is I have to do to fix it
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Sep. 3rd, 2005 @ 10:33 pm (no subject)
Transparent people, walking around shrouded in the oblique void of their ignorance. It’s so easy to read them, when they think they’re being coy, when they’re hiding their shame behind a gauzy sheen of angry defense.

The art of watching them, it wins you so many point, so many useless points, for what good is the watching if you don’t care to take advantage of the watched?

I hate when people promise things and never follow through or offer invitations with a closed door. You know the ones,the people who always smile their tight plastic smiles, affixed to plaster faces, so easily chipped away with slightest pressure.

“Oh yeah… we should totally get together!” when facing someone, turns around and it’s, “I wouldn’t hang out with that person if someone paid me.”

Why do people even bother establishing false connections of friendship? It perplexes me to no end.
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Jan. 28th, 2005 @ 12:15 am (no subject)
I really don’t remember, by the way, I’m not the grudge-clinging type, but I won’t deny the certain pleasure I take in being so forgetful.
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Jan. 22nd, 2005 @ 11:49 pm (no subject)
the combination of work and school is frustrating me. I would love to live in a Steven Spielberg world. Where the awkward but charming leading man and the beautiful but emotionally damaged leading lady fall madly in love in a matter of hours. Where the aforementioned leading man will always fulfil his fathers dying wish, and will overcome his oppressors. Where taxis will always take you "home", and everyone lives happily ever after.
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Dec. 16th, 2004 @ 12:03 am (no subject)
things really are not that complicated. I know I generally don't help simplify things, but if you just take a step back or talk with the right person, you'll see that.

If a 10-year-old mattress weighs double what it did when it was new because of the debris that's absorbed over the years, then my 20-year old mattress must weigh quite a lot.

I may be so much of everything that I am nothing of anything.
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Nov. 13th, 2004 @ 01:47 pm (no subject)
How do you make private entries?
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Oct. 12th, 2004 @ 11:47 pm (no subject)
I am not attracted to the people i want to be attracted to me.
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